last weekend i took a train to ny, was on the rilo kiley guest list twice (thanks to my "roadie" friend), and had the time of my life.
i dont know what it is about jenny, but i lose my tongue and get all nervous around her. i was completely fine talking to everyone else, even to winona ryder! and cutting jasons (the drummer) hair, totally fine no problems. then i wither to dust. lame. oh well. i'll get over it some day.
but yes, i had the most wonderful time seeing old friends, making new friends, and walking around the city, sigh. one day i'll live there. one day.

i was serching youtube for the above commercial cause i had thought about it and rememberd it being very funny. but then i saw this one:

its not funny and even less interesting, its chinese and 5mins long BUT... its the entire song 'i will come to you" by my loves, Hanson (-(-\)\) hahahaha i cant even remember the last time i made that symbol. i love being a geek.

this weekend will be awesome.
anytime i get to spend away from here is time i need, anytime i get to spend in ny is time i dream of.
unfortunately after this weekend i cant go anywhere, do anything till i get bills paid and money saved. no shows, no trips, no life really.
so please, friends, visit a mindy and keep her sane.
le sigh.

i do not miss buffalo.
i do miss everyone there.
i miss things to do.
i miss cityness.
i miss...

i have set my sights to the midwest.
late spring 2008 i will no longer be a(n upstate) new yorker.
its time to savesavesavesave like ive never saved (because ive never saved).

amazingly good dream #17:

im riding with my dad in the car on a clear night that had previously been a very rainy and gloomy day. there is a car behind us not too far away. suddenly my dad swerves sharply to avoid hitting a large white duck that is honking at cars and flalling its wings while running along side the road. though we avoided hitting it easily, the car behind us has a very near miss and hits one of the wings. like in an old cartoon it seems we drive by this same area again very shortly and again, the duck is honking and flapping wildly. my dad again swerves to miss but this time the car behind us hits the duck. at this point im very upset and telling my dad to stop the car, obviously this duck needs help and is trying to get our attention. (now that im writting this all out it sounds very cartoony, but i still love it).

so we stop the car and i see another duck near by and it runs closer to me then honks and motions to me to come closer and to follow it. we come to small barnlike building that has a very large opening in the middle that is more like a hallway roughly 10ft from left to right, entrance to exit, and only about 6feet from this large doorway to the opposing wall. i look at the exit to my left and there is a car that had been there who knows how long sitting in what looked like an underground pipeline, almost like a sewer, with about ankle deep water. to my right a open room with a straw floor, some animals, and a very large box in the middle.

as im standing in this hallway the duck shows me what she needs me to do: as the ducklings leave the box and go to the car they need guidance so they dont run off out the large doorway. so here i am shuffling back and forth along the hallway bent over with my arms stretched making sure these adorable ducklings get from point a to point b all accounted for.

after about 10or so mins the last few babies are called out of the box and get into the broken down car perfectly safe. the large mama duck was so greatful she runs up to me so i can hug her. then other animals, i cant remember what, also made sure i knew my assitance was appretiated, makings noises and coming up tto me so i can hug them.

its not possible for me to figure out what this lovely little dream means, but at least it puts me in a great mood.