"Rae, what she did for me, she fixed me.

"Rae, what she did for me, she fixed me.But i cant fix her."

cause i fall and i break just as easy as an egg
my shell isn't as hard as it seems
when my insides gush out there's no telling what it's about
when it'll stop
when it'll seed
when it'll bleed
i just stay in my home, in my home, in my home

the dodos

gone are the long warm summer days
now its snowing and i need to find my boots
and gloves
and hats
and sweaters
these are not complaints. not one.
time to stock up on soup
hot chocolate
socks
and find a movie watching buddy.


that last one might be a toughy...

time for change

for america

for the world

for me.

here we go!

is there anybody out there outside the window

i can hear the wind blow

i can feel it.

is there anyone to keep me from making everything awful

is there anyone out there to meet me outside in the daylight

hologram

in 5 weeks ive subjected myself to surgery
one tattoo
2 piercings
and a partridge in a peartree.
or rather to packing. of which i have yet to start....
oh buffalo, how you've missed me, i know.
im primed and ready to enjoy you everyday
all day
all night
its right.
yeeeeeessssssss

taken by a 1 1/2yr old.

babysitting my nieces tonight was a huge wakeup call.
they were fantastic. not one whine, not one cry.
made pizzas, got covered in icecream, gave one bath because
of the icecream coating.
im so ready and so not ready.
someday though.

oh, and noone should have mermaid extentions.
ew.

listen to the robert plant/alison krauss album.
she really likes it. so do i.


gonegonegone cause you done me wrong

this is the saddest ive been in a horribly long time
but its only because i was so happy not 8hrs ago.
thunderstorms have always been my favorite
for every reason imaginable.

job? check.
house? almost.
excited? you have no idea.

DING!!!!
betty rulez. other carz droooolz.
batman so good. mamma mia so cute, but probably the
sappiest movie ive seen in too long.
coming thurs: guts are getting poked.
coming saturday: great fun in the form of a wedding.

i found that if i turn my computer just right on the
nook table, i can steal some decent internet.
i feel like im back in highschool. a plastic bracelet adorns my
wrist and must stay until next friday. i guess the
hospital will forget who i am and wont trust my word
unless its written on my arm.
i always wanted an id bracelet.
im sad i wont be able to dance to my fullest potential at the
wedding. ill do my best, i promise!

here im allowed everything all of the time

i dont like being pitied.
especially when i dont know its happening.
next time, save the drama.
this girls tuff. like the cutz.
otherwise a great weekend was had.
dancing was done, even cool runnings was watched.
and still 2 more days of vacation. yes!

get smart= !!!
wall.e=!!!!!
wanted= i shall find out in moments

EDIT- wanted was fantastic

nononononononononono
make my nose stop clogging
i almost got a wonderful weekend off.
now i will spend it warming the couch and filling the
tissue bin.
wall-e?

ever since i broke that mirror my luck has been getting worse.
what else can i fry/break/destroy prematurely?
surgery got postponed.
paperwork is a bitch.

i got a new old computer.
its not 10lbs. and goes fast.
YAY.

in other news... im going to see the new indiana jones movie at midnight tomorrow.
anddddd i cant remember the other 3. oops.

on the eve of my half birthday i will be getting surgery.
its nothing major, but scary nonetheless.
ive never even been gassed let alone put under and sliced into.
bye bye polyp(or fibroid) i will not miss you.
i will not miss being exhausted from 2 months of bleeding.
i will not miss taking so much iron i feel magnetic.
i hope this isnt too forward for the interweb to read.
oh wells.

ps- the photo is linked to more pics of the magnificent fwr.

its funny that when i finally start eating well, really well, and taking vitamins, and working out everyday, EVERYday, is when i have to go to the doctor.

i believe my body is in shock.

so i stopped, for a week.

still dealing with lady problems but i also feel like shit.

its time to get back on my 7am-11pm schedule. back to fruits and veggies and pilates and a variety of vits.

my mom just told me i cant watch tv next week.

but we were finally going to order cable!!!!!

i guess one more week wont hurt.

"mindy, you cant leave till im done doing hair, just so you know"
"ha, does that mean im taking over?"
"yes. you can have it all"

what?

but i never make it in the flatlands
i must stay in magic mountain

i never thought id ever be sad to be a singleton on valentines day.
how superficial.
oh well, it happends to the best of us.

to all those celebrating, happy card/flower/stuffed animal buying day.
to the rest of us, happy 2nd thursday in february.

who'd thunk id listen to fleetwood mac so much?
that molly would look so babely in a wig?
today im in such a haze, i need to make my body sleep more.
weird dreams and lack of exercise are keeping me up at night.
work it!

so plans, again, have changed.
no more chicago. it wouldve been great but things have fallen to wayside on that project.
instead im heading south east.
no no, not south south east east.
merely to the greatest city ever to have lived.
surprised?
ny, i will be yours by the end of the year.
yay


(photo credits: mike murray capturing a dude in a tard hat)
(edit: i think we all know i have absolutely no concept of geography, even with a map)

its been quite an interesting few weeks.

ive changed a little, but its good. very much good. in fact,

so much so i dont really know

what to do about all of it.

i also dont know why i always type "ov" when i mean to type "of".

updates and downdates are greatly postponed but i guess its just

too far along now to really matter.

im asking for a raise tomorrow. one dollar.

one dollar roughly means 120more dollars a month.

its a start.